(Angst cause My brain feels like it :] )
(Tw: bad thoughts? Insecurities thoughts of suicide etc all depressing shit ya know-)

(Oc used: Electric)

No one P.O.V

One breath...two...three...Good..

He was breathing calmly, following a rhythm as he kept his thoughts calm and Peaceful..if anything leaving his head empty of thoughts to help with the healing process.

Six eels..that's how many he counted swimming around the stone he lay on currently. His metal tentacles laying in the glowing liquid that filled the moat that the eels lived in.

Seven eels now..It didn't really matter how many they were to him right now..just that they were there with him in their territory.

His ears would flick, seeming to absorb the sounds they heard around them, however this was false. To most that's what it meant, his ear flicking meant he heard something. Any animal or creature does this..but he..was not.

He was a robot..a cyborg if you got down to technical terms..but more robot then "man" or "animal " as some might put it.

...he wasn't normal...like other people or creatures..

A slight shock that ran through his sensors let him know that the eels were giving him a warning about where his mind was heading..but..He couldn't just let go of the thought...it had risen from the depths and now it clung to the part of his brain that manufactured his thoughts..over taking it like a virus.

He knew..that his partners didn't see him as normal either...he could see how uncomfortable they were with it...and truly..it didn't make him feel much better.

Their flinches..the way they couldn't even bare to look at him when he was having a robotic meltdown or his body was Just showing it's natural ways of processing things..

It only brought more pain to his heart.

The shock voltage increased but it still didn't stop a thing..and his mind only continues to spiral further down until the tunnel it was going through.

They only pretend they are okay with it..
If they saw what you really look like underneath what you hide...they would leave you..

These thoughts scream at the loudest Decibels in his mind and continue to spread through his processor, Muting out all other thoughts or systems that tried to warn him of the harm he was doing to himself.

The fact he had to think or say processor instead of saying he had a brain...only added to the heavy feelings that continued to overwhelm his hard drives.

The pain he should have been and was experiencing from the eels didn't deter His thought process once, he almost wanted to Laugh at how much he wanted to Cry and scream at himself for everything he was feeling..the fact that he even had the audacity to think maybe he should talk to bis partners about how he was feeling.

Laughable..it was all just so laughable to him..

Especially..one little fact..

His core...glowed brightly into the darkened room, the eels pool being the only thing to light up the room..but his core brought light to the room...and a much heavier darkness to his thoughts.

"How easy.." he mumurs to himself, a small weary laugh leaving him as he looks down at his core, staring at the shinning light for a moment, oily tears pricking his eyes.

"How easy..it would be to kill myself.." he laughs tiredly, his head flopping back down to hit the ground that he lay on.

That was the last thing he muttered before passing out from the pain.