So the past couple of days have been rough. A lot of things have changed. I don't know if its for the good or for the bad. Um for starters my friend Paige has changed but i don't know if its for the good or bad we will just have to see i guess. Um my life has changed pretty much all together. This is probably stupid just writing whats gone on in my life but u know what that must suck ass. Anyways i feel like my life has changed because like i feel that all my friends have changed but not for the good except Paige ( happy for you). But like i feel like all my friends are slowly drifting from me especially my friends who are really close to me they have been so caught up in drama or like there life and they don't even know whats going on with me like my best friend Alisha is so caught up in drama that she can't even look in my eyes or look at me and notice that i'm hurting or that all my emotions have disappeared and that they wont come back I've known her since i was little and we use to tell each other everything but since sophomore year ( this year) started shes just has been pushing me away and i have tried everything to ask her whats wrong but she just goes to her stupid popular friends or her friends that smoke weed and shit. Sometimes i feel like dying in a hole and never come out or just feel like i'm not good enough to be her friend. But i guess that's how like works some friends come and some leave. So hows your guys life? Does it suck like mine? Or is it way better?

I mean i have a lot more shit than this that has happened to me in the past. i'm only saying this cause you guys are probably like oh that's not too bad but it is worst at home but i'll be fine

Thanks for reading 

                                                -- Caylie byo