do I feel horrible? yes.
do i want to stab myself until i die? yes.
am i avoiding a conversation with the person i love so i dont seem annoying? yes.
am i hungry? yes.
do i want to cry? yes. do i feel depressed? yes.
did my dad forget my doctor just said my depression is worse? yes.
do i need someone to talk to that i trust? yes.
but will i bother someone or make them feel responsible for it? no.

ill be bottling up my emotions so no one will see me in such a state. i need to lose all my emotions. they make life difficult