I realized something through all my vents and non vents. is this fun? i get understand you understand my pain but when i see those comments i start to think I'm a crybaby, i get okay? i feel like you all deserve more then me, so much more. i start to belittling myself because i think im complaining and being a bitch. i was crying today so much but i acted like everything was okay because i hate when its made about me. others before me. my dad apologized for what he did but i didn't forgive him. call me a ass for doing so. im tired of people. im tired of existing. im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired

i hate existing, all i want is attention and i cant say it correctly, i understand people have their own lifes but sometimes i feel distant and i always feel alone. i dont think theres many times in my life where i felt someone was there. im sorry i exist