you ever get of mutuals or cosplayer on tiktok? like their makeup skills or whatever,, their follower account,, yeah i do,,, they get to cosplay more than i do and can get whatever they want, they have supportive families with occasional bad things happening every once in awhile,, its sad,, i want those things, i wanna cut my hair like ventis or something without being told ill get in trouble or it got rescheduled,, sometimes i work hard on videos only for them not to work out,, everything i do feels useless,, i know i should care about this type of thing but i want to be recognized,, but itll never happen right? im just sad,, anyways ill be going off to try making myself happy,, goodday,,