Did you know what will you do to help yourself?

Did you know what will you say to yourself?

Did you know what will you give to fix yourself?

You came to fixed everything but it's also depend on you. You didn't know what should you do, you say, or even you give for that. If you do the same thing, isn't it mean that everything will end up same like before? But, what if you change one of it? Can it make a meaningful difference?

Nothing is sure and you afraid to do something different. Because what if everything just only be worsen than it should be?

You willingly to do everything for them. You watched them hurt, fell, and suffer repeatedly. And you're there to fixed all of it. But, how about yourself? Isn't you as important as them?

What if everything just back like before after you fixed it?

You want to make them happy. But is there a meaning behind that if you're not a part of that happiness?

Everything what you've done and feels made you being numb. You didn't know anymore what you've been do, is everything is worth it or not.

What for you do all of this? For them? You didn't know anymore.

Everything is just so confusing.

You want to help them, to free them from the sorrows. You know that it was a part of life, but you just want to east their pain, their sorrows.

But, can you understand what they really feels, think and experience? Can you understand that as if you're the one in their place? If you can't, isn't it arrogant for you to said that you'll do everything for them?

Ever you think are they even want to being saved? Of course you do. But, for you, no matter how much they won't to be saved, you believe that there is a little part of them who wish that there is someone who will come for them.

And you want to be that person. You know that is just a selfish feeling but you just want to be their supporting pillar.

'If I can turn back, will I can fix everything? What shall I do for them? If everything just worsen, isn't it all my fault? How many times I have to go back to make everything is perfect? Is that even a word perfect in this world?'

There is a times you feels like you can save them. But, it's just disappear and you have to go back. It's like even world and times say that there is nothing you can fixing.

Sometimes you think, maybe it didn't work because you're here. What if your existence is the one who shouldn't be here? If you disappear can they're happy?

And then another thought came to you, so who gonna fix everything if you're not here? Can you fix it first before you have to disappear?

No matter what you exchanged for something new, it's just a temporary things. Did you really believe that what you got as an exchange is something will last long?