Cherryblossom trees
they have so many petals
all of them are pink
all of them are unique
yeah, just like snowflakes
not one is the same

when there's rain that's gray
sky is usually clouded
but there are rainbows
and there are still soft colors
the world is just damp from rain.
does rain purify?

^ haikus

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My mom said my scars were superficial.
My head says that they're battle scars.
Friends say they're trophies, to show how strong I am, how long I've lasted
I think they're a symbol of my weakness.

Blood is calming to me, for some reason. Something about the smell, the taste, its just... enlightening. It scares me how much I appreciate blood.

^ small rants

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What if he loved me
What if he killed himself because I didn't talk to him enough
What if I pretended to love him.. would that make him feel better?
I don't want him to die.

What if a different he loved me as much as I do him
he says he cares about me
I don't know if he even means it
he doesn't want to talk to me
why would he want to talk to me
what if he died
I would lose my sanity for good then
what if his girlfriend broke up with him
would he love me then?
or would he do nothin, just because our ages are three years apart?

^What ifs

I just... I just needed to get some things out. Sorry