im a little sick right now,,,

its understandable not understanding why other decide to to around you, you believe its a lie because it doesn't make sense. youve been thrown away so much that you believe its always a lie what they call love, you believe that love is just a myth created to make people feel better. many have voices speaking back to them but i dont, i dont have a voice in my head. i talk to myself as my role models so i feel loved, ive done this so much that sometimes it feels like someone is holding me when i need it. i feel more safe somehow feeling that touch, maybe its because my friends dont care about me like i thought they did.

ive never been the popular kid like many think, im not rich either, im not attractive like people think, im ugly and deserve the pain i receive. i tell myself this every week and yet i stopped feeling the pain of it. every insult i try throwing at myself stopped working so now i feel broken, incomplete per say. sad isnt it? i know people are itching for something good to get out of this.

i know your watching me? what do you want exactly? do you really think telling her my secrets will help us become friends again? your stupid if you think that, youve used me for years so go on and see what happens if you tell her fake info. shes using you and your dumbass cant see it. i dont take your kindness for granted, no you take mine for granted. just stop lying about things for attention and stop making everything for yourself. you both make me sick, your both manipulative son of a bitches. just know that ill see you two fuckers in hell. if you see this wrote shit about me and even tag all my friends okay? your fucken keeping drama going even though i stopped and you might say im unstable but honestly im just done with your bs. im not a stupid person despite how bad i am at spelling, lets play this game and enjoy ourselves, hell ill even get a friend to tag your fake asses. let the war begin okay? for reals this time.