i dont feel like making them and i dont feel like participating in any like i lose track of peoples entries and the other day (more like last week i believed) i felt like a bad runner for it,,, at this point im thinking about letting other people take my books and complete them for me like i honestly hate this,,,, life hasnt been too nice to me lately and it pisses me off. my parents have been making me cry and feel unsafe and uncomfortable its horrible that atm i feel more safe talking to people online then my own parents. if they take my phone away ill pull the 'your taking my happiness away' card because being online with all of you makes me happy.

also can we talk about the fact no one in my family has asked if i feel comfortable in my own body or what my pronouns are? like mom you told almost everyone (without my permission) im gay and trans but you never asked what i feel comfortable with? like how about you dad? you know im gay but what? you arent going to ask if im okay and how *i* feel with you touching me? oh yeah thats right, you only care about your girlfriend you fucken asshole. im sorry that im a 'ass monkey' when i dont want you touching me. i dont tell any of my family anything because all of them seem to blame the other but end up blaming me for not being able to open up.

hey mom what happened to my psychiatrist appointment? oh yeah i remember, you lied to me about them opening then closing again so you wouldn't have to take me. but my siblings? yeah lets take them to speech therapy and counseling because even if their younger they definitely need it .or then you damn 'daughter' with severe depression and anxiety plus a possible eating disorder. yeah the little ones need it more. just go to hell okay? your horrible towards me! im a liar because you all lie to me! im a better liar then all if you combined! stop calling me stuck up, a brat, a asshole, a know it all, little girl, and soooo many more! just stop it because you tempted me every fucken day to do something ill regret for damn sure!

oh sorry this was supposed to be about art contests lol but here take these pictures of a bitch

murder-

you better stop or ill kill you :rage: :rage: