i just remember writing about the thing im in uhhhh life update at 10:50am???

um,,, i might have had my first nightmare i dont remember,,,,, either that or i really just said "cry in sleep and wake up crying" idk,,,, um i feel bad? im not sure about what but my heart hurts and its hard understanding it,,,

like am i blaming myself for existing again? i don't know,,, i just wanna lay in bed and hold narnar but i cant,,, today is my moms day so i have to leave and go to another bed,,, i dont find but only monokuma is there and i dont want my stepdad to laugh at me when seeing my plushie,,, o

okie bye now,,