So last mont near the end of it me and 7DivineStar7 both posted a book called girlfriend/boyfriend auditions which was basically for us to find a lover cause we were loney. We posted it on the 23rd which was four days before my birthday. So you know at first we thought the plan wouldn't work at all. But it did work for my bro, Divine. They were so happy and hell I was too. But life gets me down which happens. Later on that night/morning I posted a picture I drew while this was going down and it took a long time to draw. So lets just say today I was doing something. I was talking to someone and I suck at figuring some people out so I couldn't figure out the fact they were dating someone which sucked. Um so it leads to today where I took my book for the auditions down. About maybe 5 minutes ago while writing this. But onto other life stuff.

This month I ordered my first chest binder so thats nice Im not sure when its coming though. And I um also ordered my first full cosplay outfit minus the shoes since I'm buying and painting those. Um its Kokichi and I'm getting his outfit in three months and the big con Im going to is in four so I hope it gets here. If it doesn't then I'll probably see how quick I can get either a outfit together or order like Miu's cosplay cause I think that comes quicker from Amazon. I ordered my outfit on Ebay. My dad is cosplaying as Souske Aizen from Bleach cause he wears glasses. Last year he was Tenya Ida from BNHA. A lot of stuff is happening and writing is hard for me now for some reason. I starting to think my depression or anxiety is making me feel like this. I mean I've been so lonely lately that I've had to hold something close to me while trying to sleep just to fucken sleep and sometimes that doesnt work.

Um something I've never said to you all but I did go to therapy but I stopped going which wasnt my choice at all. Of course it wasnt helping like at all. So yeah havent gone in almost a year now.

Okay this is the last time I'll mention my 'love life'. Um I'm okay with 15-16 age wise so um theres that. Im bisexual but its whatever. I uh prefer girls but guys are fine. And fuck this I'm not doing a list.

Thanks for the people who are reading this bs. Um I'm not sure what Divine is planning to do with the book but its their decision to make not mine so they dont need to ask me about this. Anyways bye