... i... i'm sorry for putting so much depressional stuff here...

i... i do the same at times on snap chat.

one of my friends asked me yesterday if i had meant the thing i had put there.

... i looked him straight in the face and said yes.

i do cry. i hate that i do.
i hate that i can't shut up.
i hate that i can't figure out when people want me...
i hate that i get so attached to someone that... even when they hate me or ignore me... i still love them...

no, not romantically... but... i love them as a person... a friend... a sibling...

there's a lot of people that i love... and... and that I pray for everyday...

over 20 people... over that even at times when i can't think of names... i just think  of all the people i know and love and pray for them...

i-i'm trying to get my act together guys... i'm finally getting my homework act together... but... my social act is going to take forever...

if i ever shut you out of my life... i-i never want to... but... a lot of people tell me i should because you may not be a good influence.

it-it breaks my heart to say that...

i treat everyone i can with the same respect i  wish i had. at least... to the best of my abilities...

still working on that with my siblings...

i'm getting off topic...

look....

i'm sorry i'm so depressional...
.... it's clear enough to my mom and dad now that i'm starting to go to therapy... but... yeah...

if i ever insult you... i-i... i'm sorry. i just want to tell you what i see... if it hurts... i'm so sorry it wasn't written or said the way i intended...

i hope you all have a good day... i'll try to come back later happy for you guys...

bye...