It's more of i'm sad.

Wattpad hurts. to look at people, to watch and see if, maybe, they really just move on.

It's easy to move on for most, because over the internet, it's easy to block, or mute, or, just not respond.

I love writing. It's what first introduced me to Wattpad. Minecraft introduced me to gaming. Love, introduced me into friendships...

I've been hurt multiple times this summer. Many of these times lead to those chapters filled with depression and such.

It's because I am broken. People I trusted with my life, abandoning me.

People I loved, hating me.

People I want there with me, leave me behind in the dust.

I give up. Because... one of those people, i feared more than I was their friend. My best friend saw this happening before I did...

Maybe that's why it hurt so much. I got attached easily, basically "fell" for that one person, then got kicked in the ass to the curb when I was against them.

Maybe that's why I chose my best friend over them. In about 14-15 days, I would know my best friend for 10 years.

10 years.

Compare that to the friends I've known for a year, three years, 5 years.

... i don't think I know you guys.

Not KNOW know.

Unless we've spoken more than just a few words... i don't actually know you.

There are only a choice few who will say the first word for a conversation...

those... who I start the conversation.... why do you not talk to me outside of that?

I have to go somewhere in a minute so I'm going to stop here.

This... is the reasoning behind why I don't say anything.

Because I'm already broken.

And I don't think I'll be able to handle any more heartbreaks from my friends.

I love you guys to death... and...

This is the only way that I can't hurt you.

By leaving...

~Alaina...