They Call Me...

I have the solutions to all my problems
But I keep them anyway
Not solving them today
I have emotions that I pick out of a jar
My fingers fumble for something new
I'm just bored because I'm not like you
I don't look before I jump
If I did I'd never fall
And that would be no fun
So I trip on my own
Untie the laces of my shoes
Hurting is all I can do
So why stop when it's all I know
No one likes a loser
And everyone's jealous of the winners
So I'll keep falling behind
When I see you fall behind
And I'll keep racing forward
When I see you in front
I'm aimless and floating
When you know all the answers
There's no point searching
When you have it all
You don't want it at all
Who likes me?
I'm the picture you judge
But will never understand
They give me names and labels
It's easy to comprehend
What you can put in a box
Close the lid
Forget that it's what you did
Not what was done
I don't know me and you don't know me
Will I ever find a label
That doesn't peel off me so easily
I was the nerd once
Yet they noticed the bitch in me one day
Became the weirdo straight away
Now I sing on a stage
It's That Girl Who Sings the next day
If I came out as something new
Maybe a sexuality they didn't suspect
Or an attitude they didn't expect
I'll have a new name again
Yet when I'm alone
And you're gone
What do I call myself?
Just a nameless mess, that's me
Alone inside my head everyday
Playing games on your petty ways
Fooling all those eager eyes
They only know my disguises
We only know our disguises
I am what we all are beneath our disguises

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A/N: Been a little... Frazzled, these days. Not sure of another word that is more suitable in this case.