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Poem!! Idk it's deep (like REALLYYYY deep) and weird and metaphoric and there is lots of symbolism. I felt like publishing it...? Read on and meet the Shakespeare that lives inside of me XD

- PBJ_sandwich <3

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When I'm truly happy,

I just want to laugh and smile

and tell you everything

without even thinking.

I want to sing my favorite song

and dance without caring about

the moves.

If you're stiff and serious,

I'll tell you to let loose

and I'll push you till you do.

If you're moody and you're grumpy,

I'll tell you to forget your moods

and make you dance

in the middle of the hallway.

Just smile with me.

Because I'm really happy

and I want you to be happy, too.

I want to joke till I start laughing for no reason,

and then I want to laugh till my cheeks start to hurt.

I want to talk till I have nothing more to talk about,

and then say any stupid thing I can think of.

But really, I'm only happy

because I'm in love.

When I'm in love,

I can't stop blushing

because I know they love me, too.

I can't stop smiling,

even my cheeks start to ache

because their smile won't fade away

from the windows of my eyes

which leave a smile on my lips

forever and always.

I can't stop talking

even when people say I'm getting annoying

because their words

won't stop replaying with my thoughts.

When I think of that person,

I feel like whatever I do

whatever flaws I have

they're perfectly imperfect

because my lover accepts them all

with their smile and love

like I was the most perfect thing in the world

when in reality

it was just them and them alone

who loved me like they did.

But, once my lover left me

while I stood still and stiff

in a frozen time

where I had none of their love

and nothing to hold

when I was about to let go

and fall into the depths of depression and despair,

I felt cold and alone

with a feeling of hollowness

like a hole in my chest and head

where they left their memories in my mind

and scars that decorated my heart

and shielded my soul

for a very long time.

I didn't want to open up

to a single other person

unless it was my once-upon-a-lover

and without them it was like

something inside me had lost it's power,

shutting down my system,

leaving me with no other choice,

but to reach for them

who's eyes held comfort

who's arms gave security

who's words leaked love

and who's presence could heal

a wound of any kind

and they had never slipped from my mind

no matter how hard I tried

as I couldn't let go

of something that held me in place.

It was like the hard soil that held roots

and the roots' plants that fell

when their soil wasn't strong,

but it all fell because the roots were insecure and unsteady,

my roots are my heart,

my soil is my once-upon-a-lover

who let go when I needed them.

I feel like falling.

I want to fall and break away from this untouchable pain.

Love is pain, love is a healer.

Either way, it can also be a killer

that sent me to Heaven as an angel.

In which case, love is crazy.

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