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This is.. Something new. I want to be honest with you guys.

I hate myself, I hate even existing. I'm young yet I have cried and have felt so damn drained of life. I want to cut myself but I stop myself. I make jokes to hide my tears of something stupid. I cry when I fear afraid, I cry because I feel alone, I cry because I believe everything I do is stupid. I don't know if I have true friends or not. I only have online friends who could leave me at any moment. I wonder why people care for me. I am out of pace with my siblings, I forget too much, I fail too much. I have backed myself up against a wall, and have no idea what to do. I am too deep in my sorrow to realize how I hurt myself. My only true friends I know are fictional, well, except one who has cheered me on. I want to die. I want my sun taken away. But, how would I know, I am just young and dumb.

Others have worst, while I have a supposedly loving family, but have they ever cared truly? I do not know. I just know, I don't deserve to live.

I, Fandom, don't deserve to live, but everyone else does.

So who am I to speak a word?

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This was my.. little rant about everything.

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