That dark sinking feeling sets in,
All your thoughts start to swim,
What if's fill the void of doubt,
Never one thing they talk about.

All my past mistakes arise,
And shatter the glass of my pleading blue eyes,
No one sees them leave their mark,
No one sees them make a spark,
A spark of self hatred,
A spark of doubt,
No one to talk to,
No way to shout,
Drowning in failure and times I've messed up,
Guess I've always had such bad luck.

Thoughts race by me which I wish I could ignore,
Regret hits me like a punch to the jaw,
Disappointment, screw up, can't close her stupid mouth,
Everything good in my life ends up going south.

Why do I bother,
Why do I care,
If all I do is make mistakes,
Why is anyone even there?