Slowly

Slowly

Ever so slowly drowning

Drowning in my fear

Drowning in my hate

Drowning in my loneliness

Drowning

It's so dark
Cold
Inviting
Loving

It's so much better than the life I'm given

I don't know what it is

Water?
Ink?
Oil?
Blood?

I can't taste
Hear
Smell
See
Feel

I can't breath
I can't feel my heartbeat

Beating from pain
Depression
Longing for a moment

A moment of clarity

A moment.......

Drowning

Drowning ever so slowly and deeply

The light has vanished
And I never want it back

It hurt
The light

I don't want them to know

There are things they haven't learned

Things that would destroy them

Things that would break them

Their sanity
It wouldn't return
Ever

Drowning

Ever so slowly....

In the abyss

Of my psyche