(Not tagging them. They'll know its for them... Or should I? Hell I'll do it.)

(This is more like a letter now oml)

-exoticluke

Dear Mikey, Calum, And Luke, and possibly Ashton,

I'm so sorry. I'm mainly sorry to Luke though... Luke, I didn't mean to get pissed at you. I really didn't. I was kinda maybe upset because you didn't know your feelings towards me.. Well I blew up out of proportion... And I'm extremely sorry... I'm so sorry... As I said in PM.. I'm not usually the "pissed off at people" type unless they actually do piss me off... And you didn't... You didn't piss me off... My emotions overcame me and I got mad... Or at least moody... I've been like this for a few days... And I'm extremely sorry. When I thought "I'm a bit of a fuck up" it's honestly true. I fuck up my life... I fuck with my relationships (even though I try not too)... I fuck with my friendships.... (Again, I try not too) But honestly. I don't have faith in myself anymore... Like, I get told I'm a piece of shit every day. I'm broken... I'm trying to heal... I thought you could help me heal Luke... That's why I fell.. For you... I fell so hard... Normally it doesn't happen this fast for me... The falling in love... But it did with you... And I'm not regretting it. I can't regret it. You're special to me tbh... And you and the boys have saved my life. If I didn't find you boys... I wouldn't be here.... I wouldn't be here at all.. I'd be either in heaven or hell... Most likely the second one... I'm no perfect angel.. I try to be nice but I have a bad side too... Tonight my bad side came out and kinda went a bit to far... And I'm fucking sorry..... Lukey, I'm just really sorry... I may take a break... Hell I was supposed to do that anyways... But who told me that I should stay?

I think his name is Luke and he owns the account name of -exoticluke....

But trust me, I'm not mad at you for asking me to stay. At least you care about me.....

I think I should go... I have to get up early..

Goodnight now Lukey, Ash, Mikey, Cal x

Love you

Xx
Natasha