This morning I had to go to Mrs Haywood's classroom to calm myself... (Mrs H is my public speaking teacher.) So I went and tried to calm down but like I ended up increasing the depression by sitting there for the few minutes of being in there.. I wrote depressing letters... More like letters of goodbye... I am breaking so damn much guys... I can't stand it. If you guys think you can help me and at least try and make me feel better.. I would be very grateful for you guys... I ate... But after I ate, I felt like throwing up... Which I might do... So um.. I might see you guys later... Maybe.. (Honestly I think blurry is taking over me... I haven't mentioned him in a while.. So I think he's thinking this is the opportunity to fuck with my life...) So I'm probably going to go puke for a while and then pass out. Hopefully I wake up... ✌