(Note: This is a fanfic for the analog horror series Needlemouse. If you want, check out the series before reading this)
It's been a long time....so long. Ever since that fateful day that took you from us. From me....
I remember the good days of college, the classes were boring as all hell, but my friends always made the day better in the end. We were the Fun Gang. Even looking back at it, it was such a goofy name we had. I blame Luthor for it. Our little group was Luthor, Martin, Michael, and me. But there was always that...unofficial fifth member of our group.
You....
I don't know why we never said you were part of the gang, even though you were our friend. Michael jokingly called you the unofficial member, but you always laughed it off. You were so fun, so funny, so enjoyable to be around. The group and I loved to see you whenever you arrived. Sure, we had our fights, but that comes with every group of friends. It was honestly embarrassing seeing you and Luthor try to blame on who trashed that car. Years later and the cops still haven't figured that out. Strange.
I knew you were always fond of me the most. You would always stay nearby me, especially when we got to the less friendly areas for our night parties. It was so obvious you had a crush on me. One touch and you would be blushing up a storm. It was so funny, yet so adorable. It took a lot to tell you that I was dating Lily, expecting you to leave the group out of anger or shame for my choice. You never did...you never hated me for anything. Even when we got into our fights, when I said hurtful words about your family. You never hated me for any of that. That was always your biggest trait, no matter what people told you or did to you, you couldn't bring yourself to hate them.
I wish we could have had enough time to fully invite you to the group. I wish we could see ourselves graduate together. You, me, Lily, Luthor, Martin, Michael. Our own, little happy family.
But....then that night came....
God dammit....I wish I never went to that party...
Because of our studies, it would get harder and harder for the gang to meet up together. So, I saw an opportunity when I heard people say a party was being prepared. I gathered all of us, even Lily and you. It was fun at first, the usual joking and banter with party games. Then the drinks came out. It reeked of alcohol a lot faster than I expected. I found myself in the middle of a group of people, with the others taking seats at the corner. I didn't remember where you were. Then....people started yelling...punches were thrown....bottles were being thrown around the room.
I got....so scared I couldn't move. I saw Luthor and the others trying to get into the mass of fighting people, but they just couldn't. I then felt something hit the back of my head, making me fall straight to the floor. My eyes were getting heavy, all I could see was the blurred bodies of the people fighting around me. Some were getting closer and closer. The last thing I remembered was....something heavy getting on top of me.
It wasn't long before I woke up when I heard Luthor and my friends yelling. My vision came back, seeing them pull people away from me. I saw...a look of shock came across their faces. My ears were still ringing, and my head was still shaking. It...felt heavy. Like someone was laying on me. I then noticed my sweater was wet. My vision was coming back, when I noticed the blood that was staining my sweater. I felt it cover my head and neck. I thought I was...dead...but...I was still alive....
My gaze looked up, seeing who was laying on top of me. My entire world shattered when I saw you. Your entire face was covered in blood that was leaking from your head. Your neck and arms were so bruised. And your...your...face...
You weren't moving...you weren't breathing...
I remember how I laid you down, how I shook you. Tears ran down my face as I yelled for you, begging for you to be alive. Luthor and Lily had to pull me back, then I heard that sickening noise when your head lifelessly hit the ground. The entire party fell silent, everyone was staring at you....
I wish there could have been another way...but we were so scared of the police finding out. Our futures would be ruined. I always hated myself for leaving you in that lake. You deserved so much more...and it's my fault that you were even there....
When I got home, after the group spoke of never speaking of this to anyone, I stayed in that bathroom for hours. Trying so hard to wash the blood off of me...wash my dirty sins off of my body. I only stopped when I stared at my body in the mirror. I was hurting myself; my arms were getting scraped by my nails. Me, Sarah, looking at herself in a mirror in a frightful craze. It was my fault...my fault...my fault....
Life...wasn't very good after that night. The group became more distant than before, I don't blame them really. Lily and I didn't talk that much after...but we made sure to spend time. I barely held an appetite; I didn't eat until Luthor found me after class and forcefully took me to a restaurant. We both decided to skip class for the day to just hang out. We went to a pond and...and...I broke down then and there.
I told Luthor everything, how it was my fault that you were dead. How I didn't deserve any forgiveness from anyone. How I can't go to sleep without seeing your lifeless body. I told him how much I hated myself for even bringing them to that party.
Luthor just wrapped his arms around me, holding me there for what felt like an eternity. He pulled me off before speaking to me. "Sarah, I know it's hard. I know what you are going through. Michael, Martin and I hated ourselves for not being there to help you two. But this pit of self-loathing, self-hating that you are doing to yourself, do you really think HE would have wanted this?! If he was here, he would be angry at you for even thinking that you hate yourself! When I saw you after class, you looked like a different person. We can't hurt ourselves for what happened. He would've wanted us to keep going. So, lets live for his sake...."
I stared at Luthor, trying to think of something to say to him...but nothing came. I just fell into another hug. I knew he was right, how you would've wanted me to keep going. I'll do it...for you....
We all managed to graduate. I got a job working on computers at this business called Sega. I kind of hated that place, since it was built near that lake, we left you in. Lily and I, despite how people viewed us, ended up getting married. We always made sure to keep in check with the others. Luthor, Martin, and Michael. We were the...older Fun Gang. Every year, on the day you died protecting me, we always held a little party at Luthor's home.
One day, Sega sent me home for the rest of the day, giving me a copy of a game they wanted me to play test. Lily was still at work, so I decided to take the time. Getting into some comfy clothes, I plugged the Sega console into the tv and put the game in. It was weird however. They were working on a game called Sonic but...this disc they gave me was labeled..."Needlemouse." I thought the guys at work were pranking with me.
When I put the disc in, the tv came to life with the soundtrack they were going to use with the Sonic game. Sonic...I mean "Needlemouse" came through the golden ring and waved his finger. The first stage showed up, "Green Hill Zone," and I tried to move around. Nothing happened. I checked to see if the controller was jacking up, but the music stopped. I looked towards the tv, where a sight made my eyes widen.
Needlemouse was...staring at me, smiling widely. As you can expect, I was freaked out and went to shut the game off, but text appeared on the screen. The feeling of fear was replaced with...I don't know what....
"Please don't...I don't want to be forgotten again. It's me Sarah...your old friend. I remember that night...I remember how you fell. I wasn't thinking straight when I laid on you. I FELT EVERYTHING. Every punch, every kick, every bruise that was forming on my body. But...I didn't feel remorse. I didn't feel hate. I was filled with...satisfaction. Satisfaction knowing that you were safe under me. Even as I closed my eyes, a sense of pride came over me as my body was used as a shield. I know you must have hated yourself for what happened, but please don't. I don't blame you for what happened. I don't blame the Fun Gang. I'm just happy that I can see you grow up, with Luthor, with Martin, with Michael, with Lily. I'm glad you were able to live the life I couldn't....
So how about we play a game?
For old times' sake?"
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