Anxiety and ADHD.

-ventish thing but I guess it counts as a x reader too-

You were eliminated. The first day in EXIT was it horrible. But after a week everyone In EXIT was so annoyed with being there were needed to take there anger out on somebody, and.. they chose you. Your ADHD was already a problem for you since you could not pay attention at all but you did your best. Which easily gave you horrible grades. And it gave pencil, stapey, lye, eight ball, bracelety and looser another reason to pick on you.

You walked back to your desk as you handed four your test. "Great! Your all done! Start working on this sheet I will be back!" Four chirped as he disappeared in mid air. You frowned. Four was the only one in the EXIT that never treated you wrong. Sure he gave you bad grades but what could he do. You were glad he kept it fair for you and the other students. At night he would talk to you before you all went to bed and you had caught feelings. You would never tell him about your problems or how the other people in EXIT would harass you and hit you.., 'no need to stress him if he got worried over me it would be my fault he felt bad..' Your mind began to wander as you thought about four. 'Yea sure hes great but it's not like he would like me, I'm just a worthless excuse of a living creature.' You laughed a bit. 'Imagine somebody actually caring about me, hah! What a joke' you thought as you turned your head to the corner. There was a little mouse peeking out of the hole. 'Not even that mouse would love me' you thought, a laugh escaped your mouth. "What are YOU laughing at you whore?" A voice called out. It was pencil. You decided to ignore her and take out your art book causing pencil to groan at you ignoring her. There was no way you were gonna get anything done so what's the point, better to actually enjoy a few minutes. You picked up a small pencil and started to draw a shape that quickly turned into four. Then another figure standing next to him. The figure turned into you holding his hand. You blushed a bit and started another Art piece. It was four and you cuddling you, he was giving you a little kiss on the forehead in the art piece you were both blushing. You let out a happy little lovey dovey sigh as you leaned your head against your hand. 'I wonder what four is doing?' You thought to yourself as you taped your pencil on the desk over and over again. 'He's probably holding a contest, I have not seen the outside world in a while, and squirrels. I have not seen them in forever! I wonder if there's any outside stealing some bird seed somewhere. But what type of bird would the seed attract..? Blue jays? Junkos? I wonder, probably something cute and fluffy that I would wanna hold! Oh how much I would love too see birds agai-' "OH MY GOD CAN YOU STOP THAT? YOUR SO ANNOYING!" Eight ball called out. You snapped out of your thoughts. "W-what!?" You said jumping "I-I'm Sorry, ill s-stop!" You muttered under your breath as you looked down you dropped the pencil you were tapping on the desk onto the ground. "guys look! She's got her childish art book out! Wow, she's suck a baby!" Lye called out. Everyone in the class turned to you. 'Shit.' You swiftly grabbed your art book and held it against your chest. Everyone in the class started laughing at you. You curled up and put your face into your knees. Footsteps were heard coming towards you. As your head tilted up you saw everyone there circled around your desk. "Hand the book over bitch. We wanna see your dumb scribbles." You felt tears start to well up in your eyes. "N-no thank you..." you whispered, still holding onto your sketchbook. "It's not a question it's a order, now give it to us before we beat your ass!" You breaths began to speed up, along with your heart rate. "I-it's private.." you cried out as you held onto it stiffening your body. All of them started to laugh at you. "Yea no shit, cause you can't draw so you don't want others to see it!" You felt yourself begin to shake, you reached one of your hands into your desk to grab your stress toy and started to squeeze it. Lye shoved you off the chair causing you too drop your stuff. Pencil picked up your sketchbook, and lye grabbed your stress ball. "P-PLEASE GIVE THAT BACK!" You screamed out, tears falling down your cheeks. "Aww, look at her! She's crying! What a fucking cunt." Eight ball said pointing at you. They all started laughing at your small figure on the floor. "Guys guys, I enjoy doing this as much as you do! But we should look in her 'art book'!" Loser said between laughter at you. "NO! STOP!" you cried out, you reached your arm out not being able to get up due to you shaking on the floor. They started to flip through the pages until they got to the one, with you and four. "NO PLEASE!" You screamed jumping up trying to take your sketchbook back. Bracelety kicked you back onto the floor. "Oh. My. GOD! YOU GUYS SHE LIKES FOUR! LOOK AT THIS." Your heart stopped. "N-NO STOP! PLEASE STOP PLEASE PLEase please.." you said crying. "Hah! If four knew I'm sure he would have just as much fun picking on this little bitch with us!" Laughed pencil as all the others started laughing. 'She's right..' you thought sitting on the ground. Tears continued to fall down out of your eyes. Eight ball picked you up and threw you at the wall. "Why would you ever think anyone would care about you!? Let alone love you! You have got to be the most R******* person I have EVER. MET." Eight ball shouted "yea! Your just a worthless ugly little bug! It's not like anybody would care if you even tried to kill yourself! If you did commit suicide it would be funny to everyone! All the people on earth would rejoice!" Lye yelled at you. You started too sob your eyes out. Your body was shaking and you could barely breathe. You started to curl up into a ball. "YEA! WHY DON'T YOU JUST FUCKING DO IT." Loser called out. You were on the verge of passing out. Everyone started shouting at you, slurs, profanities, names, everything." Eight ball stepped closer to you "why don't we all kick her one by one!?" He shouted, everyone in the classroom shouted in joy and approval. "I wanna go first!" Lye shouted as she ran up to you. She kicked you in the stomach causing you to whail in agony. "That's what you get for being so fucking annoying! You better believe we're gonna tell four when he gets back! To have him in on this would be amazing with all of his powers and stuff!" She yelped "p-please leave me alone... p..please stop.... please..." you muttered out as eight ball walked over to you. He kicked you right in the leg causing you to scream "PLEASE STOP!" You screamed. You were still shaking and breathing heavily. "Why? Are you having a 'panic attack' hah! Slut!" Was what loser said as he ran up to you and kicked you in the arm. "S-STOP!" you cried out in pain "NO WAY!" Pencil called out. She kicked you in the knee and you screamed. a loud sound was heard from the front of the room. It was four, he had just came back. "WHAT ARE YOU ALL DOING!? EVEN THE CONTESTANTS CAN HERE YO-" four stoped talking as he saw you surrounded by everyone as they continued to call you names "why don't we just destroy this 'art' book right now!" "WHAT ARE YOU DOING!?" Four screamed as he ran over to you and the group huddled around you. He took your art book away from loser and pencil. He set it down on the desk and he looked down at pencils other hand. She held a knife. He snached it away from her "WHY DO YOU HAVE THIS!?" Pencil started to sweat. "Well she wanted to kill herself already! I was just helping her! Besides you will hate her soon once you see what's in her little art book!" Fours eyes widened as he turned to your beat up shaking body you met his gaze and tears fell out of your eyes.. His face went from sadness and fear to anger. He turned back to pencil and lifted up the knife. He jabbed it right into her chest causing pencil to scream out in agony. Her screaming stoped as four shoved it deeper into her chest. She was dead. Her body fell to the floor and you gasped. The others stepped back. Loser slowly walked up to him and the desk. He lifted up the art book "four. I know you may think what were doing is wrong, but. I think you might have some fun if you join in, here's a reason for you to help us." Four looked down at the paper "W-WAIT NO!" You called out trying to stand up to take your art book back. You fell back down onto the ground. You were bruised and could not stand yet due to the pain. After four looked at the art book he set it down. And crouched down to pencil. "Are you gonna bring her back?" Loser asked as four hovered over her lifeless body. "No." Four muttered as he lifted up the knife. Four jumped up and quickly stabbed loser. He grabbed the knife and turned around stabbing lye next. Four set the knife on the table and started to zap stapey, eight ball and bracelety. They were all dead. Four stood up, bloodstained Hands, he turned to you. His face was contorted into a sadistic smile. Four walked over to you and crouched down in front of you, pinning you up against the wall. "Don't worry love.. there gone. Forever.. and they can't hurt you anymore.. I'm sorry.. I should have noticed sooner.. but at least I have you all to myself now~" four whispered to you. "Y-your gonna bring them back right..?" You asked looking into his eyes, still trembling. He just laughed a bit. "Ahh... no. They hurt you and your my precious little darling.. I won't not let that happen to you again.." four said as he lifted you up hugging you. "B-but they're right about me.. i don't deserve to live.. I'm just a worthless waste of space.." you muttered to him. Four growled "no. You are the most important thing to me in the world." You just started to cry "no I'm not! You saw the art! You just want me to feel better so you can get back to work!" You cried out as you cling onto him "p-please don't leave..please..please.." you cried on and on four pushed you back onto the wall gently. "Oh I saw the art. Besides, even if I did not I would have found out about what they were going sooner or later. It was all gonna end up the same way. And that way is that I keep you. And your mine. Forever, and if anyone tries to hurt you or take you away from me.. they won't last long." You just looked at him no words could come out, you did not even know what you would say. Four leaned onto you and kissed you. You gasped at his sudden action and he used that to get his tongue into your mouth. You pushed him away in shock. For looked back at you, his expression was a bit concerned. "S-Sorry sorry! I just.. I mean. I love you four, I really do.. but you just killed multiple people. I- I'm sorry I did not tell you what they were doing before but.. it's my fault there dead now.." four just smiled at you. "Oh my silly little (Y/N).. they would have died by my hand sooner or later. I don't like it when others are that close to what's mine." A shiver crept up your spine. You pushed four off of you. "Y-your insane!" You shouted at him. Four laughed. "I know I am.. but, they can't hurt you now! And we can be together forever without anything in the way!" He said with a smile as he crawled back too you. He lifted you up and pulled you into his chest. He helped you find your balance as you stood. "But how do I know you won't use me..or hurt me. You just killed everyone here.." you muttered crying into his chest as you held onto him. Four let out a sigh and kissed the top of your head. He grabbed onto your hands and you held onto his. "You won't. But you have to trust me." Four said looking into your eyes. Tears fell down your face. Your cheeks red, backs under your eyes. "I love you.." you muttered out as you hugged him tight. He grabbed you and lifted you up bridal style. "I love you too." Four said leaning down to kiss your forehead. Four walked out of the EXIT and set you down on the ground. Four stuck a hand into his head and you felt something wrap around you. It all went white.

You slowly blinked as you woke up. "Ugh...what..?" You groaned in confusion. There were people around you. "Is she ok?" "Why is she back what happend?" "(Y/N) are you there?" You blinked a few more times before you made out ice cube, barf bag and book. "Huh? Why are you here..?" You questioned. "Four brought you back! But you were tired stressed and bruised, you passed out.." book said as she reached a hand down to help you up. You grabbed onto her hand and stood up shakily. "Wait.. FOUR!" You said jumping up, your breaths sped up as you noticed he was no where around you. "Where is he!?" You said looking at book barf back and ice cube. "(Y/N)!" A familiar voice called out from behind you, you turned around only to be tackled over by four. "Four!" You cried out as he knocked you over onto the ground, wrapping you up into a cuddly hug. "I'm so glad your awake! I was so worried about you!" Four said as he squeezed you. You nuzzled your face into his neck. "I'm glad your here with me, I-I thought you were gone.." you said as you calmed down being in fours warm arms. Four laughed "no way. Sorry, but your stuck with me for the rest of time itself!" Four giggled. Flower walked over with ruby. Leafy followed. "Oh. My. God. Are they like-" ruby was cut off my four turning to look directly at her. "Aw!" Leafy squealed out as she looked at the two of you. Match ran over. "Oh my god! She's back! (Y/N)! How's pencil!?" Match asked with a gleeful smile. You cringed and four let out a growl at the mention of her name. "Well uh.. she uh.." four cut you off "she's dead and good riddance." Four growled. He sat up with you and continued to hold onto you, making sure you could not get away from him. "WHAT!?" Everyone called out in shock. Flower ran up "WHAT HAPPENED TO HER!?" Match ran over to four crouching down. "You can bring her back r-right!?" Match said, a anxious smile on her face. "Yes, but I won't." Four said with a annoyed tone "why!?" "Cause everyone in that room was harassing my (Y/N). Physically and mentally. And they were always to close to (Y/N). There gone and it will stay like that." Four said growling. "Well they must have done it for a good reason right!?" Match questioned trying to rationalize the situation. "Yea they did have a good reason.." you said looking down at the ground. "I was annoying.. I was to anxious.. I never got anything right... I could not pay attention.. I'm already ugly as it is.. I deserved it for being such a pest.." you murmured as you looked down at the ground. Four growled. "See! This is what they did to her! Pencil was gonna try and kill her!" Four screamed at them. He held onto you. "You killed my best friend you insane excuse of a ho-" for screeched match causing her to pass out. Everyone standing around you all took a step back. "F-four your kinda scarring me.." you said nervously. Four kissed your head. "I'm sorry love." He whispered to you "it's ok." You said as you leaned on him. Everyone around you was shocked and in fear. Match woke up and dizzily got back up. "God if this is how you act around (Y/N) no wonder everyone hated her.." match grumbled glaring at you "your the reason my friend is dead!" Match screamed at you. She turned around and stomped away. Not to long everyone followed after match, off away from four and you.

After a few minutes four and you were laying down on the grass cuddling, he stroked his fingers through your hair. Suddenly four grabbed you and pulled you up against him, spooning you. "F-four!" You squeaked at his sudden actions. He let out a low laugh and sat up, he put you in his arms and then stood up. "We're gonna go to my place, Mk?" He told you as he started to walk "ok" you said as you nuzzled your face into his chest as you he carried you.

Four and you had made it to him and X's little home. Four open the door and walked in. X was sitting on the couch. "Four! Your back! And- wait (Y/N)? What happened to you!?" X asked as he ran over to you, looking at your bruises. You giggled "just some stuff, but I'm back now.. and I guess I live here now?" You told X reaching out a hand to pat him on the head. He smiled "yes, you do live here now.. but we don't have a room for you but that's fine it's not like you need one, you'll just sleep with me" four said as he set you down onto your feet. You felt your face heat up "I-.. uh- I.." you studdered out as four looked down at your flustered form. "Awww! Are you two a couple?" X squealed, causing you to giggle a bit, you were still flustered so the laugh came off in a anxious tone. "Yep! And she's all mine!" For chirped with a smile and he engulfed you in a warm hug. "I kinda wanna see some birds, if that's ok with you four" you said with a smile. "Of course! There's a forest behind the home, wanna go see it?" Four asked you pointing at the back door. You nodded as you ran over to the door. There was a little robin pecking around in the yard, and a deer running through the back of the forest. "Woah!" You said your eyes wide at the sight of animals again. "I don't get what you like so much about them, but I'm glad you're happy." Four said with a laugh at your enthusiastic response to seeing animals. "There just cute! I like them!" You giggled as you watched the robin plucked a worm out of the ground.