So its three am and depression hit me like a ton of bricks while I was scrolling through my feed.

I've been feeling just incredibly lonely for about a week now, and I feel like its mostly because my friends and family have been ignoring me lately. And I was just scrolling through my feed on Insta and all my friends were posting about how happy they are and they're all hanging out together. And then I switched back on here to get away from that and cheer myself up.

But everyone is either offline, or not really talking to me lately.

And I know nobody is doing this on purpose, at least I hope not, but it doesn't change that I can't seem to shake my lonely feelings, which in turn is making me feel incredibly jealous. And anyone who knows me knows I hate feeling this way.

That's kind of why I decided to make this book? Like a virtual diary that let's me get advice from others. It might help a bit, or it might not. I guess I'll find out.

In other news, I'm trying to get back into writing and drawing again. My depressed mood isn't really helping though, since my mood reflects onto my work, which... Just makes a reminder for my brain that I'm upset.

I don't know. I guess this entry is just a big complaint. I'm trying to watch the OG Charmed to cheer myself up, but I'm unfortunately on depressing episodes so yay.

I guess that's all for now.