To my parents: I'm sorry that I'm not a good daughter. To be honest, I don't think I deserve to be a part of this family. I feel like I can't do anything right, and am a worthless person. 

To my friends: I'm sorry that I am the way I am. I don't deserve friends like any of you. You guys are so awesome, and unique, and amazing, and then here I am, moody and depressed. I wish I could be just a bit more like you guys, because you are the best. I can't believe I give such good advice, when I can't do anything else properly. I wish I could be a better person than who I am, because I'm borderline suicidal, have a little bit of social anxiety, and feel like I'm a failure at everything but my academics. Everyone tells me that this isn't true, but I still feel like it is. 

In real life, I act confident, put on a mask of happiness, and only to my friends and my father do I let my true colors show. I've tried to open up and be myself around my mom and step-dad, but they yell at me when I am. So, I become everything that my friends know I'm not around them. Because I have trust issues. Because of them. And it sucks. But, hey, that's life for you, I guess.