I've been distant. With a lot of people. I feel like everyone I've kinda just floated away from has the images look on their face. I want to just tell each of them "It's not your fault. It's mine. I've been the prick who left you. I'm sorry."

But I can't.

So I just stay behind and just do what I've been doing lately. Not giving a single f--k over anything. My grades are falling, but I keep them passing. People like me, I go "kcool you're out of my league. Why."

I've given up on everything except my friends who I still talk to by them being super close to me. Why, I don't know.