Have you ever felt lonely? Ever felt like you weren't enough?

Ever felt like life just isn't worth it? Or maybe have you ever felt like the people you hung out with were maybe good people instead of the bad ones you thought they were?

Ever thought that that Noah guy in your friend group is just a lil bitch? Ever thought that maybe the friend group you're apart of "supports"?

Ever thought that maybe you should try again with that friend group, considering they seem nice? But what if, that's all a trap?

Ever just wanted to be alone for a bit? Ever just wanted to sing I Want To Be Alone by Green Day because you eanna be alone? Ever just wanted to have a friend that loves you more than anything?

Ever wanted a boyfriend? Ever wanted a girlfriend? Ever wanted somebody to love, and for them to love you?

Ever wanted a life that felt useful? Ever wanted to exist? Ever wanted to kill yourself?

Ever felt like life isn't worth it? Ever felt like your friends aren't your friends? Ever felt lonely?

I have. And I'm starting to get a bit worried.

I rejoined this friend group that I ignored all of summer because I felt like they would just chuck me around. And I blocked their numbers, and I really hate this Noah guy in the friend group.

I just hate him. He sends shivers down my spine, he makes me feel uncomfortable, he's the worst.

I want him gone from the friend group. But I guess I have no say in the friends in the friend group.

I guess I'm only hanging out with them because they want me to? Or maybe it's because I don't wanna be the lonely loser? Or maybe I don't wanna get picked on by others? I don't know.

Why is it when I start up school again, the scars on my wrists start to fade a bit more? Do you ever feel the sudden urge to ki- wait that's not normal.

My happy place, music and art. Throw in writing and you cured my depression. Take it all away, I feel like there's no point anymore. Add music and I feel alive. Add art and I'm happy I'm drawing or making clay creations. Throw in writing and I feel like I can just write WHATEVER and I'd feel a bit ok.