Why do I have to be so stupid? I study and study. Constantly work, yet I still make so many mistakes. I've been sitting in this room for days. I have spent each day like a school that behaves like it only has 24 hours to teach you, yet it actually has your entire life time. I jam packed any and all forms of knowledge I could into each day, barely taking time to even eat. "God dammit. I need more time," I will never figure this out. I have one question that I can't answer no matter how much I study and research. What is love? From what I have gotten is that it is all a chemical reaction produced in your brain. I would accept this but it didn't satisfy me. And to think, this all started because of Patton.

He asked one simple question, "Logan, can you feel love?"

"I-I don't know," that was torcher to hear me say. I have thought about it many times. I am Thomas's logical side so it would make since that I don't, but how come every time I see Patton I experience what I could explain to be Love. My chest tightens, I get butterflies in my stomach, and it gets harder to breath. I thought I might have just been sick, but I realized it only happened when he was around. I was stuck with the infatuation of love. I understand how it happens, but not why the certain person it is you fall in love with. "AGHH," I pushed every thing of my desk in anger. I'm done. I can't know everything, and I can't know why I feel how I feel. Why did this happen. I stared at the edge if my desk. I've been in this process for weeks. I finally saw a release. I don't know how I didn't notice this before; I think I finally drove myself to insanity. I grabbed my phone and went into my contacts. I scrolled till I found it, 'Patton' was typed in. I pressed it, typing words that I never knew would hurt so much, "Good by". I hit send and looked back at the desk. I started beating my head against the corner of it, Over and over again. I heard the stomping oh feet going down the hall. My door burst open just as every thing blacked out. I love you Patton. Good by.