The girl had been gone for a while and had herd from her personal messenger man and found out that there have been wars broken friendships and her friend dated the boy that she knew she loved.
She began to cry her self to sleep long and to the point she could baerly get thro some one mentioning it.
She had told one of her friends exactly why she doesnt want to leave her reasoning was this.

The reason i want to stay is not only for all 30 of my beloved friends!Its because I dont want to cause the same heart ache and pain that my father had caused me. When he left i had suferd for a long time and still do because of him because he left and no one knows where he is. And i belive that doing that to one person yes it still does some damage. But what i will most certanly will forever regret is leveing 30 people that depend on me to help them. And one person that doesnt do as much damage as one most depened on friend leaves all 30 of there friends the damage will be 900000 times worse and you cant fix it.  That is what i worried about most when leaving all of thwm! So when you leave one person leaves and colapsis then they all go down with that person. And if that person is the most important part to this huge family of  friends, when the glue, or the captin to a ship, when those things disappear or leave the ship and the crew falls or leaves with captin, or when the glue weres out or fades and can no longer hold that project to gether then thatproject falls along with the glue!