I just want some angst right now. Hope you lovies like it.
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Being married for almost eight years sure is a long time for anyone. It might also prove that the couple loves each other and already conquer every problem.

To other's point of view, its seems like that. But to Baekhyun, seems like a decade with Chanyeol is still short. Not for the reason that Chanyeol do not love him, Chanyeol do love him...before.

Both of them spent three years of relationship before deciding to settle down. In Baekhyun's dream, he will be living with Chanyeol happily until their hair turns gray, just like what they promised in front of the altar.

But those dream of Baekhyun for the future seems to be remain as a dream.

The six years of their marriage was full of bliss and mild problem. Problems that they can easily resolve. Problem that do not include painful and regretful words.

But as time pass by, slowly, a invisible barricade started to grew between them.

Chanyeol always make use of his work as an excuse to leave their house, and the other day, Baekhyun will find a drank and wasted husband sleeping in their living room.

Multiple times that this kind of scene happened. But the smaller just let it be and tend to accept everything that is happening thinking its just Chanyeol's way to escape his stress from his work.

Never in his life would Baekhyun imagine that one day a more tragedy to their relationship will happen.

One night of Baekhyun's birthday, the midget prepare a small feast for the both them. He even texted Chanyeol to get home early for them to eat dinner together.

Chanyeol did went home early, but not like what he expected. The taller was so drown with alcohol that the strong smell of the beverage reached the midget's nose.

When the door opens with a loud bang revealing a drunk giant. Baekhyun jolt from the dining table and quickly jog towards the door.

"Chanyeol" Baekhyun breath almost choking to the unwanted view

"Oh! Hi there Baekhyun" The taller raise his palm and gave Baekhyun a hazy look "Sorry I drank with my friends a bit, but dont worry I'll just sleep this out" Chanyeol dismissively said walk passing his husband

Baekhyun who was slap by the words Chanyeol had spoken felt a clench in his chest. He cant help but to form his fist into ball to control his tempting tears that were already formed around his eyes.

"Ch-Chanyeol" Baekhyun said with a broken voice and still remain back facing his husband "Do you know what's the date today?"

He cannot see but Baekhyun knows that the taller stop from walking

"May 6? Its Saturday. Why?"

Baekhyun almost wince after hearing Chanyeol's answer. He bit his lips as he let his tears roll down his face. And clench his fist even harder

"You re-really dont rem-member?" Baekhyun ask again already hiccupsing

Chanyeol who was high from the alcohol dont have any idea that his husband is already breaking down. He just shook his head and proceed on walking towards the stairs.

But midway, a hand grip on his arm causing him to stop his track again.

"If you have problem tell it to me!" Chanyeol was shock to hear Baekhyun yells while tightening the hold on his arms "Not like this! I dont remember anything that I did to make you treat me this way!" The midget continuously cries

After hearing Baekhyun's words. Chanyeol reach for the smaller's hand that's holding onto his arm, to remove it and finally face the crying midget.

Giving a straight face to Baekhyun. Chanyeol heave a deep breath and brush his hair back with his fingers

"You really wanna know what's the problem?" Chanyeol's voice was low but a hint of displeased can be heard from it.

Looking back to the piercing eyes of his husband. Baekhyun tried to remain standing though he already felt the weakness of his legs.

"Yes, I know today is your birthday. But I purposely ignore it" Those words were already a gun shot to Baekhyun's heart but he decided to remain mute and listen to Chanyeol's words.

"Because we already celebrated it together every year, so it doesnt matter to not celebrate it this year, isnt it?" Chanyeol state like it was really not a big deal, but to the latter's it just made him to cry harder.

Slanting his shoulder, Chanyeol look at his husband like he was talking to a acquantaince who is crying in front of him.

"But youre asking what's the problem?" In his blurry sight due to the effect of alcohol, Baekhyun is nothing more than just someone he know. "The problem is you" the taller point at the midget's shoulder causing the smaller to step back a bit.

"You see, yes you gave me everything. But one thing that's common to a odd relationship we have" hearing the word 'odd' is just too much for Baekhyun, he was about to open his mouth but then he refuse to talk again and just wait for the taller to hit him with painful words again

"I dont know Baek. But do you know how I feel so out of place whenever my friends talk about their daughters and sons, at first yes, Its okay. But realizing it. It was really nice having a normal family right?"

Though his sight were blurry, Chanyeol knew that Baekhyun is crying hard. But he chose to continue just to clear everything up with his husband.

"Have you think about it too? That our relationship is too odd. We can never call us family without child Baek, am I right?"

Suffocated with the overwhelming feelings, Baekhyun decided to just nod and wipe his never ending tears.

Finally having a clear eye contact with Chanyeol. Baekhyun force a tight smile though it was clear through his eyes that he was broken

"I get it now. Im sorry, you can sleep now" was all Baekhyun can say as he watch his husband turn his back from him and almost stumble while climbing the stairs.

Left with too much pain to handle. Baekhyun finally let his knees break making him to fall down on his knees and continue to cry harder while blaming his self for everything.

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The next morning, Chanyeol woke up at nine, thanking god for not giving him a hang over. As he stretch his limbs, he feel like something is missing. He sat up and look around the dimmed cold room, realizing that his husband was not around.

Swinging his legs on the edge of the bed. He rub his eyes as he stand to exit their bedroom.

"Baekhyun-ah" he calls loud enough to be heard from downstairs, but unlike before that he will hear his husband hum or respond to his call, what he get is a silent living room and dining area where Baekhyun would usually stays during Sunday morning.

"Where is he?" He ask his self as he settle on the living room and turn on the TV

Watching some random TV shows, Chanyeol did not noticed the time until he feel the heat of the sun strike on his face and he heard his stomach grumble.

Glancing to the wall clock, his eyebrows knitted seeing that its already afternoon but still no Baekhyun is around. He got up and grab his mobile phone quickly dialling his husband's number.

Instead of ringing, Chanyeol's call instantly turn into voice message which is not usual for him because Baekhyun never turn off his mobile phone especially when he's outside and the midget is surely not at his work because its Sunday.

Twitching his lips, Chanyeol set aside his mobile amd decided to just cook for his self.

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Its already almost evening, yet Baekhyun is still not home. Lossing the interest to the tv shows, Chanyeol hissed as he turn off the TV and stand to grab his mobile phone again.

But when he was about to grab it from the glass table. A folded paper that was inserted between the flowers placed in the middle of the table.

Not thinking twice. He get the paper from the flowers to unfold it "What's this? Why didnt I notice it a while ago?" he mutters while unfoldind the paper

The moment he read the first word, the scene from last night flash back in his mind.

About last night, I already understand it. You were right, our relationship is really odd for this world. But how I wish you realized it earlier, not right now that there were too much things to hold on to. Anyway, granting your dream to have a complete family. Im letting you go.

Though its hard, I though that its harder living this way Chanyeol. I love you, remember that.

Just a short letter gave a big slap to Chanyeol. A slap that wakes him up and making him realize that he lost his husband.

He lost Baekhyun.