So, I just need to say this because I think that people need to know this about me.

(You can skip this if you want to)

I have never self-harmed and never plan on it.

Which is good, yay me. But, I have dealt with self-harm in a different way. I've have at least four friends that have self-harmed or are still doing it. Yes, I would try to make them stop in any way I possibly could, I would tell them that there's a better way to let out this anger, that they can just lay down or something and just keep talking to me.

Then they wouldn't text back in a while. . .

A half-hour later they would text 'sorry'.

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One of said friends texted me during her time of actually trying to kill herself. She had taken a bunch of random pills, but later threw them up, thank god.

I just. . .

I kinda got anxious around her all the time. I would always make sure that she was happy, and would try my best to make sure she never tried again. That was a couple years ago, I haven't seen in her at least two years.

She recently updated her Facebook saying that she's been three months self-harm free. I was so proud of her.

That was the worst case of self-harm I've dealt with. But ever since then, I've been super cautious around friends. I get super nosy if they're upset, I try to make sure that they're fine, I try my best to see if I can do anything to make it better.

Yes, I want to help people with if they're dealing with this kind of stuff. I want to help, I really do, but I also don't want to go through the pain again.

I don't want to say I have PTSD, but it's something like that.

I can't deal with helping, but I want to help.

I'm sorry that you had to deal with this, but I had checked my Kik and one of my friends that self-harmed profile picture had something to do with self-harm, and I've been seeing a lot of self-harm posts on my Facebook and I just needed to get this off my chest because I was the point of tears.

I'm going to go to bed now, and hopefully forget about this.

But,

Yeah

Goodnight