Check out the real book first: Random DM (it's kiribaku by the way)

What do I do?

DM Mina on Instagram/
DM Mina on Twitter

>DM Mina on Instagram<

I don't know how much I have until I pass out so it would be stupid for me to change apps now.

I open up the messaging part of Instagram and click Mina's user name before I hesitate with my thumb over the key board.

How am I suppose to explain to my best friend since high school that I cut again? Will she be disappointed? Of course she will but the real question is, will she be so disappointed and mad at me that she won't help me?

"You deserve to die."

She'll say it just like my parent did. Tears roll down my cheeks and I click out of her name. I slowly slide my back down the wall so I can sit down.

What do I do now? If I don't get help soon I might die. Not to sound dramatic but it's true. I look at the phone before taking a deep breath and click on a random person I'm following. I don't know them, they don't know me. At least in real life.

~~~~~

I scroll through my comment section to see what people said about my post I made this morning. It's rare for me to post a photo where I don't have make up on and I couldn't help but be curious what people thought of my natural look. Not like I care about the extras opinions, I am just curious.

Most comments are something like 'I would have done the same' or something creepy like that. I just roll my eyes before I come to an interesting one.

I never openly came out as gay to my fans because I never felt the need to. I told the important people in my life like my parents and shitty Deku and his friends. Let me reword that, not important but people I see on a day to day basis.

Anyways, the extras have always assumed that I was at least bi or pan or something because you never see any straight as fuck dudes making make up tutorials on YouTube unless it's for a challenge. But this comment seems more like a tease to the persons friend then anything.

I smirk, proud that a guy finds my hot because let's face it, we all know I am. I move to scroll when suddenly I get a notification for someone DMing me and lo and behold, it's that Red.Riot dude. I click on it expecting it to be some love confession that leaves the guy with a broken heart and me a boosted ego.

Red.Riot
Help

I frown. He probably is filming a video or some shit and just wants me to reply so he can get a tun of likes and follows. I can't believe the bitch is texting me this late and it's not even a love confession.

Me
What the fuck asshole?! It's three I'm the morning and I don't even know you

Red.Riot
I need help

Me
Go cry to your mama about it then

Red.Riot
I think I'm going to die

The fuck?! Is this some type of trick? It wouldn't make sense for him to text me that unless he was looking for a response and I have already given him one so what's his deal?

Me
WHAT?! Call 911 then idiot!

Red.Riot
I can't

Me
Why? Your texting me so you have a phone right

Red.Riot
Because I did this to myself

I take a shaky breath and place my phone on my bed. I snake my hands into my hair trying to find the words to reply with. Did he really do something to himself? If so why wasn't he texting someone he actually knew?

I glance over at my bedroom door. Deku would know what to do and he's just down the hall. But it's an ass move to wake him up right now when he's planing to send all day tomorrow filming with his boyfriend. Also it would like I was admitting I can't do something.

I grit my teeth. I know everything so I'm going to fucking do this by myself god damnit!

Me
What the fuck did you do?

I hold my breath as I wait for a response. That was the appropriate thing to ask right?

Red.Riot
I cut again and it getting hard to keep my eyes open

I shut my eyes and take a shaky breath only to reopen them. If he cut I don't have time to freak out, I need to help the idiot now.

Me
Where did you cut? Also I need you to grab any clothing or towels near by you and put it where you cut.

Red.Riot is typing•••

Me
Did you get something?

Red.Riot
Yes I had to tie my shirt and a towel around my wrists Im sorry for not replying

Me
It's fine. Can you tell me if anyone else is fucking there with you?

Red.Riot
No one is

Me
Where are you then?

Red.Riot
In my apartment

Me
Address. I need an address.

Red.Riot is typing•••

Me
Are you there?

Me
Answer me

Me
RED!!!

~~~~~

I wake up with my neck hurting from sleeping at an awkward position but that doesn't explain why my wrists hurt.

I open my eyes only to see my bathroom a mess. Drawers and cabinet doors were thrown open and everything was thrown out as if a tornado came through. Then my eyes land on the floor. Holy shit.

The floor is covered blood. Like I am currently sitting in a pool of dried blood. I stand up freaked out only for my head to spin. Desperate not to fall I grab on to the counter. I now see that one of my arms is tied in what use to be a white towel and the other in one of my favorite shirts. Thank god I always buy two shirts at a time if I really like them.

I untie the cloths hissing at the discomfort before washing away the access blood. I see my arms scattered with thousands of new cuts leaving me wide eyed. I grab the medical alcohol and clean the cuts before properly wrapping them with wraps. I guess I have to wear long sleeve shirts until the cuts heal. Great.

I grab my phone and wash off the dried blood. Once I reopen it I see that I got some DM's while I was passed- asleep.

Open the DM's?

Yes/No

>No<

I swipe out of Instagram deciding to check it later. I move to Twitter to see a DM from Mina. Why can't she just text me in messages?

Alien_Queen_✅
We still down for filming later?

My eyes widen and I look around at the state that my bathrooms in. Shit.

If she comes over she might see the bathroom and I didn't text her for a reason. She can't know. But I could clean the bathroom. What if I don't get it done in time though? But we have been planing this colab for over a month and would kill me if I canceled. And my fans would be upset. I could just do a live instead and promise to do the colab later this week.

Alien_Queen_✅
Kiri? U there? It said that u read it so r we down?

I need to choose now before she sends the police after my dead body.

What should I do?

Do our planed colab/
Host a live on YouTube

DO NOT VOTE PLEASE!!!