My face js so swolen...

Im crying now cause hes gone and i didnt ask him to stay i didnt even get one last hug i hadnt seen him for over a month i doubt he wanted to see me... Every night i get my phone and look at his facebook and it says single but his bio still has taken with my name and every night my heart hurts alittle more... Some days i miss him more than others i cant even talk to him without crying... I dought he misses me... I know he checks up on me ob insta i have his passwords and iv looked at it before and at the top of his recents fawn2004 and i start crying again... I drove past his house yesterday on a school trip... I almost cried... All my friends think im fine but i hide all of my feeling behind our dumb jokes and dumb excuses... I miss him so bad and he probably doesn't miss me 😭😭😭