Title. Yeah, if you could guess; didn't have a good father and now, I'm mentally not fine. Giving me more gender dysphoria, but more so on being a girl(more-more on the fact, that i have, boobs. i hate it).

And on how my mom said I'll have a boyfriend or a husband; saying that, me liking girls is just a state on where I'm confused - and hopefully go back to liking guys.

Tried, to help myself with acting like some of my main two confident ocs(FNF oc; SD, and Sonic oc; Anthony). Tried, to calm myself down with my favorite music from EATEOT("back there Benjamin). Even, going to the other bathroom, just to cry(I like crying in them, tho it's sad. People won't be coming for me, and just think I need to poop, and it's not coming out).
The first one failed(was the first thing that made me cry), second kinda failed but not, and 3rd one helped.

Or maybe it's because I'm in a safe space for myself too? And writing down, my emotions help,, I guess. And when I'm going to get ED in school;I can't be on here(need to focus on my school work).

I just,,

Hate that I was born a girl, can't  be as NEARLY as confident when I'm  a crying mess, and I can't really trust guys irl(I joke with them alot, and all. they can hurt me emotionally, but fucking never physical).

Yay! Another vent in the same day! What a con wink donk!