Yall remember when I said that I was doing OK, yes?

Well, not anymore! I just broke up with my girlfriend, my mental health started deteriorating. She was my everything, I lost her. Because I was so damn selfish

I was too selfish, I couldn't even find the time to text her. I never knew how bad I treated her but I know that she kept forgiving me every time I had wronged her. I was too busy, I kept most of me a secret because I didn't know how she'd react and because I didn't want to worry about me

Now, I feel like I've lost the only thing keeping me alive.  I never knew how it felt to be dumped but I guess I do now. I still remember how she'd propose to me during on March. We became official since April

We did have to break up at some point in June-July due to religion, I just couldn't take it at all. She was a Buddhist whilst I'm a Christian/Catholic. I'm still sad about it I really wish I could've noticed my actions earlier so we could've worked it all out

But now, even as she was the first to propose, it's seems like she lost feelings for me while I still have feelings for her. Sometimes I really wishes we never met. Sometimes I wish we never got back together, she broke up with me right before our anniversary.. we did end things on a good note though

But even as we ended things on a good note, I still can't help but feel sorry for myself? 

I respect her and her choices but she Sometimes makes me feel dead to her. If any of yall had experienced Smith similar, feel free to vent 

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AUTHOR'S NOTES:

I don't think I'm doing to well. I might take a break with all social medias and just rest for a while but if I don't update this book, it's either I'm on break or 6ft deep now</3 

But seriously,  I hope you guys have a good day. Aside from you T. You hurt me so bad(targeted obvi♡) 

Anyhow, have a great weekend and I hope you all have a good valentines, though I'm single now, my valentine is gonna be my #1 pook who is also single after a same experience 

Byee~!

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Spell check: 0 I can't see through the tears pooling down my eyes writing this♡♡