Everything is just.. MY FAULT!!  IM ALWAYS GETTING BlAMED and just...  my 'friends' don't really care... it's just... hard to make new friends... I'll been acting so much now... for smiles... fake happiness....
    I feel like only 2 of them really care.... right?  School... harder... 5th grade...  I just want to stab myself in the heart... and two of them will see this... look if you guys are reading this...  If you want me to leave the group then I will!
  It's just... making new friends is hard and... almost impossible for me...  I'm just... so STUPID!!  I'm so stupid for being so gullible!  I'm so stupid thinking I can do this!  I'm so stupid.... for living.... *looks at kitchen knive* ... should I really do this?  All of the pain... will be gone... right?  No one will have to waste their time on me right?  R-right?!

   
RIGHT?!