My emotions are fighting. Happiness and reassurance is trying to be the emotion I feel but sadness, insecurity, and anger is trying to as well....

I bet you you're not truly loved.

She is. Can't you see? They love her.

They're faking it.

Are they...?

Yes they are.

NO. They are not faking it. Why else would your grandparents and cousin come down and visit?

To visit my sister.

And her parents.

No. They came to visit all four of them. Including her.

Did they really though?

Yes.

Yes.

Her real life friends in school seemed happy that she was leaving on the last day.

They did seem happy...

They weren't. Trust me. Plus, she still has friends online.

Oh but do they really care?

Yes. They don't know each other IRL so they could easily stop talking and voting and all that.

It could be pity.

...

No. It can't be.

Please stop....

Never.

Just leave her alone.

...

And then in comes an emotion that is better than both Happiness and Reassurance and Sadness, Insecurity, and Anger combined.

Just stop arguing. Leave her alone. Bye. Stop.

And then everything is nothing for a bit....

Go listen to music. It always brings you back to life.

And then I listen to music. My normal happy/weird self is back.....for a little bit. Then sometimes the depressed side of me comes back.

That's what just happened in my head.

Sometimes, I just feel depressed. It's happening more and more often.

Why me.......?

Why does anyone deserve to fall to depression?

WHY?!?

What did I do to deserve it?

Was it just because I was born?
Is it because I have imperfections like everyone else?
Is it because of my personality, my appearance, my existence?!

What did I do....

.....to deserve this?

Oh, you deserve it because you exist.

SHUT UP!

See Ya
~Mystic