still panicked

idk why

I have also been practically ripping my lips skin off this month or two

so

yeah

that hurts and burns-

especially when I eat

don't mind my venting rampage going on here I just feel like it

also I am so incredibly afraid of being sexually assaulted in my own house I can't-

like I start violently shaking when someone walks in on me changing, and I learned how to hiss at people cuz my mum kept staring at me while I was changing

yeahhhhh

I have slipped into little space yesterday night, slipped out too pretty quickly.. sadly.

I want a proper caretaker honestly.. that's with me IRL, that I don't have to be scared of.. and all that. 

anyway, I'm off to give my grandpa my daily dose of headpats for him so brb