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{Don't comment if you arent close to me on these.. please?}

WELL.

Im failing. Again, and again, and again.

Just when I get better, I fail.

I ignored it of course, ignoring is the best solution, don't care, it'll go away.. eventually.. right..?

Well I didn't realise it got this bad..

I feel like I just cant 

I cant get rid of trauma, I cant get better, I cant stop hurting myself, I cant stop the bad thoughts, and by giving up it's even worse and I feel miserable

I don't know what to do with myself if I cant even bring myself to talk about it with people that worry about me

that may only be ONE person, but that person very much is a very important person to me, especially because I talk to her more than anyone else but

IRL I cant do shit about it anyway and I just cope anyway I can I guess..

i feel. 

a teeeeny tiny bit better after spilling all this

a bit'

I don't even know what to do anymore

I guess I cant say it's really worth living 

it never was

lying to myself is so easy..