Trigger warning, suicide, cutting, depression, etc.
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I hold onto my metal horse, spinning round and round on the  carousel.

I did not choose to be at the amusement park, I was forced.

My family wanted me to ride the carousel. I grip the horse tight.

Others are on the carousel riding with me, and I can never touch them.

The person in front of my, riding their horse, is cutting herself.

I see the blood stains on their horse, they've been on this carousel longer than me.

I hear voices coming from the speakers around us.

"You are taken cared for. You are loved. You shouldn't give up. Jump off the ride at anytime."

The see the person on my right start to shake and stammer.

While the person on my right I'd watching a video on our ride.

Were videos even aloud?

I lean over to see what they were watching.

A nuse tutorial.

"You are taken care of. You are loved. You shouldn't give up. Jump off the carousel any time."

I try to touch the ground of the moving ride, but the ground just scraped my foot.

I want to jump, but the ride was turning to fast.

I start to feel dizzy from all the spinning.

Spin spin spin spin.

I finally realized the ride was over.

Not because I chose to get off the carousel,

But because I was thrown out of the amusement park.

And my family was no longer to be seen.