First off, Voice

So, I need a name for her. Voice or disembodied voice doesn't work well.

I want to call her right brain since shes all my emotions. In my head theres me (Calm and collected most the time, unless angry.) and then theres her.

Embarresing, a bitch, lustful, and over-emotional (Cries and can be scared, to be exact.)

There is times when she shuts up, though.

Whenever I'm on my balconey, to be exact. Or on my windowsill.

Or staring at the knife I'm washing.

I'll let you figure out the 'minor' details.

I think this is because she's supposed to make me kill myself, but she will die along with me so she lets me decide.

I admit, it has been tempting.

I'll just put a quote here for that certain someone.

"Its easy to be perfect when you don't exist."
--Julian Assange

Next thing is... Well, headaches and stomach aches.

HOLD ON!

Yes I've eaten.

Yes I've drank water.

The headache is almost blinding when I stand up, and the stomach ache is just above where my stomach is, not on or below.

I'm not sick, although I feel like fainting when I stand up, its just there and annoying.

My head is thumping. Litterally.

I hear my heartbeat when everythings quiet, and I can barely react or think. Well, I can think but I just zone out at random times.

I wonder how it'll be without my Mum. I might've stayed sitting in the kitchen for hours if she didn't snap me back to reality.

It isn't an out-of-body experience, too. I lose half my senses and the others are dulled. For example;

Touch; gone

Hearing; Heavily dulled. Everything sounds so quiet.

Sight; Gone sort of. Its like the cords connecting my eyes and brain have been damaged, so I only have a very very blurry picture that I can't pay attention to.

Smell; Gone.

Taste; Nothing I can remember. Same with Sight.

Next I'll make quick.

I want to be with people.

I'm going to change and go to my Mums room. Don't know why I want to.