So. I've decided that I'll post here every now and then about what has happened in my life. You can read them or you can just turn away and pretend that it never existed.

This week so far hasn't been the best nor the first. Yesterday I woke up before 6:00 am and didn't feel like going to sleep anymore. I didn't really eat much during the weekend or this week so far. But something... Nice? Also happened yesterday. I went to see the new movie The Nun. It was pretty good in my opinion. I don't get scared easily but there's just something that creeps me out with Valak, so it was a bit scary for me. And after the movie I had to walk home from the cinema in darkness. If there wouldn't have been any street lights, I wouldn't have seen where I was going.
   Today I first woke up at before 5:00 am and couldn't go back to sleep before about 6:00 am. Then I woke up about 7:30, so again didn't get much sleep, yay. I had today a bit longer day in school, from 9:00 am to 4:25 pm. And I didn't eat anything in school.

   I've been keeping myself in constant fear for some time now, which has sorta prevented me from sleeping much since I can't sleep if I don't feel safe. But I haven't cut in a while, which I guess is a good thing but... I have hit my arm... Almost every day. Basicly trying to break my bone. It has caused some bruising in my arm and my arm hurts all the time. Today when I hit my arm it started to hurt more than usually, I might have hit a nerve or something like that. The pain has gone down a bit but it still hurts. I also have hit my arm against a metal pole. I still want to cut but I try not to so hitting myself is kinda an alternative to it I guess. I don't know

This is all for this time. I don't know when I'll do something like this again and hopefully it'll be something not so worrying or depressing than this time