I don't know how to name this random poem I made but please enjoy!

My heart beats fast

However I don't know how long will it last

Tempted by my desire

I didn't know my condition was dire

Lost the will to write

If only an idea so bright

Would come to my thoughts

Picking one idea folded like a ballot

All I can do is to lurk in my imagination

Forgetting about my nation

My situation right now is confusing and in wander

It made my visions in life so blur

Stories without excitement

I write them inside my solitary apartment

Lost to many illusions

That made me appear in a world that is full of distortions

Even my friendship; I am at loss

An annoying sound that resembles a buzz

Plagued my head so easily

If only I could find the solution

Maybe my friends would think that I am selfish

To come up of an impossible wish

That one day we will laugh

If only life wasn't so tough