**nudity warning I guess? It's not sexual or anything just one of her berbs is showing **

There's a lot to say about this one! I actually put a lot of thought into it, unlike s lot the usual lil doodles I do sometimes. I had and original idea, but each bit I drew and each idea sparked new meaning and ideas, so it evolved quite a bit to become what it is now. It's still sort of a WIP, I might add color later, but I can explain my process up to now! 

So, I started sketching a face. Just practicing proportions, listening to some music (the music was when you grow up your heart dies by gunship, and some other songs by the artist) anyway, I was doodling, and I thought it would look cool if I put in some giant rose brambles like from sleeping beauty. But eventually it started getting deeper than the sketch. I had the idea of her being trapped by the vines, and then I started adding some spikes to her arms and face, to show she was partly the rose, and she was trapping herself more than anyone else was. My thought was if you grow thorns to protect yourself from the world, you end up trapping yourself. I also had the rose above her, to show that you can also make beautiful things with those thoughts if you accept them. She's part underwater, kind of to symbolize that she's still discovering herself and who she is. This is around where the lore of who she IS starts to form. While I was inking, there was this bit on her neck from when I was pencilling out the shoulder anatomy, so I decided to turn it into a neckpiece to make her character design a bit more interesting. It kind of made her look android-like to my mind, so I thought that maybe she's a fully sentient android that was developed to be a war machine, but once she gained sentience she realised what she would be used for and escaped. She joined some rebels, to fight the conquerers who created her. Meanwhile, she's still discovering who she is, and what she's meant to be outside of the coded box the builders put her in. I was thinking about names, and I think that, to add to the lore, on the back of her neck would be the name of her builders/the conquerers. It'll be something rose-related, tying back into the vines holding her back despite being a part of her. (I'm considering something like conquest rose or something but I haven't decided yet) but when she decides to break free of the rose, she scratches out the name/rose (I might just have a picture of a rose) on her neck with a knife, and calls herself the shattered rose until she finds her name. (Haven't decided on a name yet) but basically it's about breaking free of the vines you've trapped yourself in, or that your past had put you into, embracing the rose in your thorns, and discovering who you are without them. Your past is a part of you, but it does not define you. Which is why I finished with those words: "we are who the world makes us, yes... But also who we make ourselves." (It was HARD to make, I wrote it on wrapping paper so it would be semiopaque but it was SUPER hard to cut ;-;)

Wow that ended up really long XD

it's kind of rambly and confusing, so if you don't understand something just comment and I'll try to clarify. (I wrote this at 2:30 am. I should sleep. ;-;)

Anyway, hope you enjoyed! Have a drawing of a butt.