I'm young, how was I supposed to support a relationship when I can't even support myself. I really do love ash, I would die if something happened to her.

But I told you.

My feelings were dying for her, I still love her but not in the relationship type of way. I should've waited until I was older to date.

Now I'm in this jumbled mess.

Grim and I are friends. F-r-i-e-n-d-s. He loves teasing me, I deleted the comments because i didn't want anyone to jump to conclusions, you wouldn't believe me.

I'm not playing the victim here. I was in the wrong. I should've told grim not to flirt with me, but I didn't.

And now, I have to pay for it. For everything. I lost my older brother, again. I'll possibly be killed for being an asshole.

I'm sorry. I truly am. I'm sorry that I made you mad, livid. I'm sorry that I dragged you and Ash into this. I shouldn't have. I should've went through with it.

Just- I'm sorry.

I'll still keep my promise, if you still want me alive.

I'm sorry.