So guys guess what?

I went to an actual real live pool with people my age on purpose for no reason and it wasn't totally awful!

So anyway there are these people on the bus and I befriended them by myself and not through a mutual friend.

And then they added me to the kik group. Which one of the guys in the group decided to name The Squad.

He's black so that's why.

Okay so back to the pool. Nat (fake name no real names in this book) asked me what tv shows I watch.

Nat, Nick, and Bean (okay he actually calls himself that but it's not his actual name anyway) all recently began watching Supernatural.

They explained they all have tumblrs and before watching this show they thought it was some kind of gay romance thing because of all the things they've seen on tumblr.

Particularly the Destiel posts.

"But wait my boyfriend said there was a kiss scene between Dean and Castiel last season?"

"Yeah I WISH"

Nat is the farthest along and has just finished season 2.

Now I have a slight issue with my new friend group.

Nick is flirting with me.

So obviously that an aromantic asexual can see it.

I know this because I am asexual aromantic at the moment. I have been for the last two weeks.

I am aroflux which means that I randomly fluctuate from aromantic (does not experience romantic attraction) and romantic (does get crushes and such)

I fluctuated to aro shortly before school began and haven't fluctuated back which would be awesome (because love sucks) except 
I'm pretty sure Nick likes me and I have no clue what feelings I may or may not have for him when I go romo.

And I have no clue when that's going to happen.

It could be two months. That's happened to me before.

Why can't I just be aro all the time?

I do know that if I don't like him back I'm going to have a problem because if he asks me out rejecting someone will be a whole new experience.

But I still like 'Alfie'.

Though I'm pretty certain nothings going to come of that ever.

And Nick is a nice person who I hope either

1: never ever asks me out so I don't have to deal with that crap.

Or

2: Maybe I'll actually like him.

Stupid complicated feelings and orientations and crap.