Okay so figured out my romantic orientation.

Aroflux!

You probably never heard of that.

It means that my orientation fluctuates (schmancy word for changing!) between being aromantic and romantic.

So I like this guy sometimes. But other times I don't have that emotion.

Sometimes I want to be a Disney Princess.

Sometimes I want to join the hunters of Artemis.

And it changes very suddenly and unexpectedly.

So this is a but confusing at times.

For example Bob.

Bob is this guy who was in my fifth period class last year. I liked him. But I would get the nerve to say something about it and all the sudden it would be like; wait hold up what's the rush? Why do I even want to be in a relationship? What are you doing? You're not in love with him or anything!

But then next week it's like; GO TO HIM! TELL HIM! I LOVE YOU!

And I'm going to say things that probably sound stupid but this is so I get thoughts out of my system and I can sleep.

Okay I find it very frusturating that I'm only a little different.

Like why do I end up Asexual and aroflux?

Like this really obscure thing I never heard of.

It's not quite normal. It's not the same as being straight.

But when my community tries to have pride there are members of the queer community who tell us we can't have pride because we aren't persecuted for it or whatever. Apparently it's supposed to be "awareness" well I don't have a disease and we aren't like an endangered species or something so you can take your awareness and shove it up your-

Okay you get the picture. Angry Ninjah.

Not everyone on tumblr is nice and excepting and helpful.

Oh and apparently we're just making it up to be special snowflakes!

If I wanted to be a snowflake I probably would've just told you I'm bi.

Not something that my friends and parents just brush off really easily when I tell them.

It's like "hey mom guess what I'm asexual!"

"I have no idea what that means."

Explains.

"Your still young."

Facepalm.

Okay here's the thing.

IVE BEEN ASEXUAL AROFLUX MY ENTIRE LIFE AND I KNEW IT BUT I JUST THOUGHT I WAS WEIRD!!!!! ITS NOT EVER GOING TO CHANGE!!!!

How I know:

Favorite Disney movie: Mulan because Mulan is motivated by protecting her family and not her obsessive desire for true love.

In fifth grade everyone else had their celebrity crushes and they were all obsessed with twighlight and I was over picking blackberries because every girl in the school thought I was a friggin lesbian because I didn't think Chandler was hot. Chandler was not hot chandler was an asshole.

My mom tried to get me to watch all these chic flicks. I wanted to watch Star Wars instead because at least Luke put saving the universe before his love life.

Everyone at my lunch table seems to think I'm really innocent.
I typically know more about what they're talking about then they do. I just happen to be mildly disturbed by it.

I avoid music because most of it is about love or innuendos that fly right over my head without me noticing. Yes most of the music I listen to is Christian. This is because I know it's going to be completely innocent.

By the sixth grade I was pretty sure I never wanted to have a baby. I'll just adopt five kids. And when I told my friend I didn't like the way baby's happen she assumed I meant pregnancy. I totally didn't.

I literally do not understand the word sexy. I never have. It has no meaning. Same goes for "hot". I find it difficult to think of humans as attractive based on looks. You can have pretty eyes and hair but the thing is, you have a nose. It's this thing poking out of your face and I happen to know it contains snot. This causes everyone to be pretty ugly including myself. I judge people on personality. I really have no idea what the rest of the world thinks of my or anyone else's appearances. They would probably lie to me anyway. Nor do I really give a flying Cheeto. Ducks are majestic though. They have a combination mouth and nose. I really wish I was a duck.

So yeah I don't know where this is going anymore. Thank you for reading.