The moment when you feel like the whole world is against you. Everyone hates you. No one likes and understand you.

Everyone only cares about themselves. No one cares about you.

You make friends and become social more so that you can forget about your sufferings.

You make new friends and become so close with them that you started to depend on them. Rely on them.

You feel like they understand you better than anyone.

But you are wrong.

Totally wrong.

They will track their own path and will eventually forget you.

You will feel worthless and useless once again.

Once again, you will feel like no one is there for you.

No one.

You will try to distract yourslef again by something else.

But again, the same or similar things will still happen all the way round.

This planet is round so do our lives.

I used to feel those... I still do.

To be honest, i still do not know how to stop this feeling.

Its a weird feeling and....

No. I am not pregnant.

I have these feelings and i can not help but to deal with it...with my weak heart.

No. I do not have a heart condition.

I am perfectly fine but i can not help but feeling useless.

In every little thing i do, it reminds me that i am useless.

Always.

When it comes to grades, my stress go up by thousand levels.

I am not one of those top students who get praises from teachers.....like i used to get.

The older i get, the more useless i become.

If i want to describe myself in 1 word then it is...

Useless.