Hey, i am Ruba. A bangladeshi girl born on 31 march, 2003.

Today is 31 december, 2017.

In these 14 years, i have seen a lot and gone through a lot. It hurts a lot seeing others hurt, heartbroken, depressed. I feel useless when i heard these news of people. I feel bad that i CANT help them. CANT be with them when they need someone to lean on and tell everything thats hurting them.

I feel EVEN MORE USELESS, coz i cant HELP MYSELF.

If only i was strong mentally.
If only i had someone to tell everything.
If only i could tell everyone whats happening.
If only i could cry whenever i want.
If only i could smile..........HAPPILY..
If only i didnt have to act like i was Happy.
If only i could...........dissapear

Dont worry, its NOT a goodbye note. I am just telling you this coz i dont want you to be sad if you ever heard that i died. Plz dont be sad. Stay strong. . I won't give up.

I wanna thank every single person who have been with me even if they dont really know whats happening. They have talked and have been nice to me. So....thanks♥

People i wanna thank:
hanijisu faazilaraiza Louw-Jones jiahArmyQueens lalalala_17399
L-Army1234 Lexi_bts7 KKAEB_MY_SONG bangtanfflover

eatthekookie btsjungkookiezoe My_gaydar_is_beeping

nanarachel high_era_001 Ella_264 Your_moonlight

ChanyeolsRingaLinga eunoiasparks this_Bear_bites

missunknown_3012 ButterflyGirl__ little_julie_ btsxkings

Rynea10 salTAEKOOKIEdough mnopqrstq

Peace out!
-Ruba
Date: 31 december, 2017