She is the most precious person in my life, the source of my joy, the center of my world, and the whole of my heart. The woman of my dreams and the woman I fell madly in love with. My love for her is like the Song of Solomon 8:3 ' I am my beloved's and my beloved is mine '.

Her name WAS Armelle Villaflor, 'was' because she's now a part of my past. A part of my past that still hunting me. They said 'let go of the past and move on but damn in hell if I move on! 'I thought forgetting someone means- be at peace with that person and never hate.' but why do I have this feeling that she's my most hated person in the world!

'Never let the past spoil your present and govern your future' The fuck I care? I have come this far... building myself up to have a steadfast unwavering future. And that... just to get back at her for what she did and make her life a living hell.

'The past can't hurt you anymore' Yes. I couldn't agree more with it! But the future surely can! Because every time I look at her, with a smile on her face, I couldn't help but feel a large lump inside my chest.

Fuck it hurts!

Is this because she's now smiling at someone else? Seeing her looking lovingly at the man was a disgust to me. No, this isn't just right. I'm supposed to be the one by her side right now. Watching her happy in another man's arms is like a curse to me.

God, I'm doomed! Because in her past and future I am just her innocent man, seared and branded into the deepest part of her heart and soul.

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