**this is an old rant posted to a rant book of mine a while ago but I'm moving it here cuz i realized that i made this book for rants too lol**

basically, a little while ago i started to get pretty confident, but lately i've been losing some of that self confidence. the main reason is all my friends have someone who likes them. and some of them have been asked out. but i don't have that. the only very few guys i thought might like me i haven't seen in forever, and they probably wouldn't even like me anymore if they did. i know i know everyone says it doesn't matter, and at this age i don't need a bf or whatever, and that's not what i'm saying. i don't want a bf rn. it's just the more and more my friends are getting asked out and have all these guys liking them, the more i feel like something is wrong with me. the more my self confidence goes away. i know i don't need a boy to define me, and that's not really what i'm saying, but idk, it just kinda feels like there's something wrong with me, like i'm some sort of guy repellent, or i have something wrong with me no ones telling me.